through half the face,
sizzling at the scalp and searing through one eyeball
the mind screaming in agony
sickness rising from deep below the stomach
pushing against the back of the throat
no hope for reasoning
no ability to focus externally
the mind collapsing in upon its miserable self
the clock ticks too loud
each second crashes like cymbals
sending synaptic shockwaves through the brain
any light is too bright
but sunglasses do little to help closed eyes
when eyelids phosphoresce hot white, lime green & purple
and any medicines that DO work, make you much sicker first,
intensified pain & nausea until you finally pass out
and sometime later your brain reboots, and you awake
but its not over then
for now, though thankfully pain-free,
follows a period of wiped out listless detachment
and some days the meds don't work, the pain grows,
mounting upon itself in cressendo triple forte and life becomes meaningless,
the mind collapses upon itself, no longer able to escape the blackhole of pain
on those days, at that time
you have but one angel of mercy, one savior
and that is the one who finally jabs you with demerol
*Not The migraine, just one of many
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